just like SITI SARAH
i also have a way to the heart expression.
here it is~
AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!~
when will i recover fully from my sickness ?!!?!?!!?
well
at first i got flue and cough..and i ignore them
since it was..alaa biasa laa
saket seseme batuk..
then it became worse.i mean not that worse..the infection affect my ear..left ear
no.i'm not deaf yet..not yet.but no.i'm not deaf.that's not it.
it's just that...oh no i'm going numb again.
this medicine to my ear thing has got this effects
1)it doze you off
2)it makes you numb
oh back to the ear infection.yes
i feel that like it's been blocked or ea..like infected you know.it bother's me like hell.
i'm going crazy because of this.i can my breathing from the inside..it's creepy.
and the cough is still going on consistently..not descending at all.
i'm taking pills not and some nose drops.urrghh
i hate it.lots.but i need to cure myself.though i know to prevent is better than to cure.whatever.guess i have to cure now..then letting it be..
i'm getting sleepy now.
hmmm
i'm missing him now.know i shouldn't
because he left me hanging.again and again.i think i'm going to get serik if he tells me straight to my face.
i don't know
he said he loved me.last week on saturday.but that's it??
why??
what??..i'd just ran through a typical guy again??..i thought he's diff.i mean..at first yes.we'd..no no..i'd been in this with him almost 4 years..i'd known him that long..guess it's not enough.
because people change when they grow up.i mean.well there are a lot of pushing and pulling.surrounding.friends.a lot.he changed.
i'm confuse.i don't know whether this thing is fortunate or unfortunate cuz my feeling for him is fading..sometimes i feel like i'm fooling myself .forcing to make my heart enter his.but nothing.
it's like..
yes. i miss him.i love him..but not in love anymore.
it seems to come and go.
haih
why am i making it hard??
cuz i can't resist the temptation like amira had said.
that's why
if not i can easily said
dear,i'm not into this anymore..so..gues..this is it. i can go for no more.
but..
i'll be missing him if i do soo..
soo..how??
the thing is too..i love him still.
but i'm afraid.afraid of everything..
none of you can understand but i hope amira can when i'm going to tell her this
i need her to listen to it.
i told alot of people.but.i'm not satisfied at all
maybe..i'm going sooo keling rite now.
so that's why nobody can understand.
but what i know is..i'm in a big question mark and can't wait to meet him..
if we meet laaa
i'd said i trust him
but that too..means almost nothing.i don't know whether to trust him or not.
i don't know.don't know what to make out of this
i just need explanation from him.that's it.and it's relly hard to get that.urgghh

better for me to stop.or else i'm gonna go insane