Today..

is so ..'what??!!'..when i looked back.

I woke up very late..at 1 PM

maybe it was because i had beautiful nightmare.

i dreamt of HIM

the 18 year old boy i'd mention.

It was nice, no, splendid!

we were like small kids,trying to hide from our mummies to a secret hideout...

that was actually at the poolside

we were trying to hold hands.i don't know why but it was just funny trying to do that.

we were..i don't know why..-giving out drinks to people around..

like it was our party or what.

i wish i'd not wake up from the 'impossible-it's-reality' dream.,urgh!

Ok that was just a dream.nothing happen yet.

but..

it was frustrating to start a day finding your favoutrite new sandels were lost..

when you had not really wear that sandels that much.

when it just gave you the confident to walk as the sunshine above you..

worst..

when that was the only casual footwear you had with you when others were all in trash.

when your mum said..'i'm not gonna buy for you anymore!'

oh i hate it. a lot.

then i was all pissd off..easily annoyed.

but what to do it just happened.i can't go back in time search for them.it was so ridiculous.

And so i danced to shake the stress away.

it was useless.i was blank.

i didn't know what to do..so i started to cut that magazines again.tried to read a book.

it was bloody blue.

ONE NIGHT STAND

friends said it was interesting..i can't tell yet.

then time passed so quickly..

went out to KFC..no appetite

followed my grandma to the police station to lodge a report about an accident.

well at least it was something than doing nothing.

it was my first time to enter..everything was white and blue..

the procedures ran smoothly.

until then it was already night..

had spent my time with the CLEO.

before i do this blogging.

hooray for me.i actually do blogging.

done with that.

oh yeah..

i just felt like screaming out loud..

and want him around.

stupid thought..it was just that news about Pakistan.like war or something..

hahah

i'm being sacarstic right now.

feeling anxious too much i should stop

just hope he IS safe there...