my lips like sugar

SWEET AND ELEGANT

just like SITI SARAH
i also have a way to the heart expression.
here it is~
AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!~
when will i recover fully from my sickness ?!!?!?!!?
well
at first i got flue and cough..and i ignore them
since it was..alaa biasa laa
saket seseme batuk..
then it became worse.i mean not that worse..the infection affect my ear..left ear
no.i'm not deaf yet..not yet.but no.i'm not deaf.that's not it.
it's just that...oh no i'm going numb again.
this medicine to my ear thing has got this effects
1)it doze you off
2)it makes you numb
oh back to the ear infection.yes
i feel that like it's been blocked or ea..like infected you know.it bother's me like hell.
i'm going crazy because of this.i can my breathing from the inside..it's creepy.
and the cough is still going on consistently..not descending at all.
i'm taking pills not and some nose drops.urrghh
i hate it.lots.but i need to cure myself.though i know to prevent is better than to cure.whatever.guess i have to cure now..then letting it be..
i'm getting sleepy now.
hmmm
i'm missing him now.know i shouldn't
because he left me hanging.again and again.i think i'm going to get serik if he tells me straight to my face.
i don't know
he said he loved me.last week on saturday.but that's it??
why??
what??..i'd just ran through a typical guy again??..i thought he's diff.i mean..at first yes.we'd..no no..i'd been in this with him almost 4 years..i'd known him that long..guess it's not enough.
because people change when they grow up.i mean.well there are a lot of pushing and pulling.surrounding.friends.a lot.he changed.
i'm confuse.i don't know whether this thing is fortunate or unfortunate cuz my feeling for him is fading..sometimes i feel like i'm fooling myself .forcing to make my heart enter his.but nothing.
it's like..
yes. i miss him.i love him..but not in love anymore.
it seems to come and go.
haih
why am i making it hard??
cuz i can't resist the temptation like amira had said.
that's why
if not i can easily said
dear,i'm not into this anymore..so..gues..this is it. i can go for no more.
but..
i'll be missing him if i do soo..
soo..how??
the thing is too..i love him still.
but i'm afraid.afraid of everything..
none of you can understand but i hope amira can when i'm going to tell her this
i need her to listen to it.
i told alot of people.but.i'm not satisfied at all
maybe..i'm going sooo keling rite now.
so that's why nobody can understand.
but what i know is..i'm in a big question mark and can't wait to meet him..
if we meet laaa
i'd said i trust him
but that too..means almost nothing.i don't know whether to trust him or not.
i don't know.don't know what to make out of this
i just need explanation from him.that's it.and it's relly hard to get that.urgghh

better for me to stop.or else i'm gonna go insane

hit me.dush~

3 days now.and still i can't figure any way to wash away my boredom.
it's killing me ok.it's just too much
i'd plan what to do at home..but..
everything's ruined.
no actually not yet because i haven't tried once
i haven't try anything what i'd planned at home
well.it's still half possible anyway.guess i have to change them a bit.with what the condition is now.the weather.it's raining all day from when the sun rise and set.twilight till dawn...and how thing's going at home.
everything is very complicated.or maybe that is how i can describe my life.
complicated.messed up..like lifeless.

recently.i'd received a bundle of books.6 all together.
they're almost related to the stories about vampires.i mean dark stories.but they aren't monotonous.readable.fine and enjoyable.i'm reading a book titled KISS TO DEATH. i thought it's about vampire.death.romance..but it's different.well what do you expect.it's Orion's children's book.so of course nothing much about romance but i know english book will have at least a small portion about romance.it's just somehow i found it to be compulsory in either english movies and books.so i quite like the book.but since it's raining everyday.it's like the book itself seems to haunt me.as it has dark setting too.i wonder. how Venice is like. but the way the author had describe it very mysterious and dark.whatsoever.

urgghh..
my blog seems to be very dull.so boring.haiyo.
the zero in my mind descend this.
bialaa.
when i got the mood.i'll do it good.
<3,
QESH

since when aQesh?

he is all i need now.just.now.

secondhand serenade

he's getting older.
his look.too.of course.
but..
he's perpetually my guy!!
hottest creature!.no one will deny that for sure.lala~

dedicated to wan amira ahmad.

thanks a lot dude for that quote whatsoever
i am sooo damn glad too.haha.
oh the STUPIDEST THING??..ah.good times.
i like to laugh with you.
cuz when we start laughing.we just can't stop.YEAH!!
haha.
and oh.i still got a lot to tell you.
brace yourself dude.im gonna release an atom bomb on you.
well again it's about the same person but..another different true story.eh i'm crapping.
aaaaahhhhhhhhh!!!
this thang make me goo craZy and confuse.so i need help.as if i'm suffocating and i need CPR.oh! 0_0..x_x

ho wow!

i can't believe it i had to stay up till past midnight

to take control of the internet from my mum's obsession

it's hard to persuade her for it..

takes long time..she'll give reasons..for time extension.

i got something to write..

but my eyes are very weary and tired right now.

and my brain can't function well

all i desire now is to sleep very soundly..

like them in the house..

ugh..

it sounds creepy when you're all alone in the LR

well i'm keen to meet amira.tomorrow which already is..

a few more hours from now.

i got alot of things to tell her..

to aMira: i know your ears burnt when you listened to my stories but you are compulsory to do so.. so sorry due..

too much too write..but yet again i guess i'd figured to write only what's on mind now..

ok back to the very-keen-to-meet amira..

i just can't wait to repeat again my stories..to her.

i just don't mind becaues i have this psycho habit

which is i like to recall back memories and blurt them out just to express my feelings and to do comparisons..

i don't know i think i'm being hit by some sort of love stories wtv..??!!

right now i'm chatting with a 13 year old boy..which my friend's brother's freind..WOW!

how could that happen..

maybe i was blinded over by his english in myspace..

it was so deep and meaningful..like myself too wouldn't have reach to that idea of writing to express the feelings..

he wrote things i'd always longed for..

this was for his far away girlfriend:

You came into my life unexpectedly, and everything took a turn for the better. Your warm eyes, your laugh, the sincere way you speak, and the kindness you showed me, all became a part of my life. As you unfolded yourself to me, I discovered more and more beauty. I have never seen so much gentleness in one person. Without even knowing it, you were slowly making a place for yourself in my heart. It used to seem so hard at times to feel so close in a relationship. But it’s so easy to feel close to you. I can’t tell you how nice that feels. I realize now that I had never known what it meant to be loved until I was loved by you.-zoro-

how wonderful is that if my dream guy would dedicate me this quotes..

i think the sweetest thing he had dedicated to me was the 'hey there delilah' song

which really suits me now as it goes like this

'two more years and you'll be done with school and i'll be making history like i do '

and

'a thousand miles seem pretty far but we've got planes, trains and cars..i'll walk to you if i have no other..our friends will all make fun of us but we'll just laugh along because we know that none of them will felt this way'

hahaha

if i keep on holding on to this song

i'll simply need somebody to come straight to me and knock me on my head and slap me in the face..yelling right into my eardrum

WAKE UP!!!DON"T STONED YOURSELF IN THE PAST. GET UP AND GET GOING. YOU GOT A LOT MORE TO GAIN OUT THERE!!!!!OUT INTO THE BATTLEFIELD!

but i'm very vulnerable when it comes to remembering the past because i like to keep them and if they're good i'll live with them..i just need someone to drag me out from the lost tunnel i'm in.

just leave it like thta

because if i proceed writing them down i don't think i can stop...and soon the keyboard's gonna turn to flame..

hahah!

that was too much..

carzy.crazy.crazy.

that was what i thought to myself

then i have to stop talking bout him now..

(sigh)

oh as i recalled back my buddies in sktd.

which i called during the old times..

wye lun's name appeared in my head..even justin's name popped right out.

how are they now?

oh darren??..who i thought had bugged into my life accidently..

calling me and said he missed me..no worst he said he missed my big nose??..=_=

what was that supposed to mean..but it doesn't matter now..

okay let me list down the 6-o

leroy, who had admitted that i was the best malay girl in school.

justin, who had been my deskmate and fight everyday

darren, people called him the watermelon

wye lun, i remembered spelling his name wrongly as in WHY LUN

zhi wei, maybe he had grown taller than me

who is another one??

wait...oh my god

jun jim..um did i spell hims name correct??..i don't know.

oh ea he's with the hair sticking out like what.like shade or something

haha!

miss them little bit

oh it's sooo past my bedtime..

till then..